BEWARE: this post may be a bit too spiritual for some, but I began this blog so that it can be a free forum for me whether I am feeling crappy, happy, wise, contemplative, cynical, sad, supremely spiritual, or anything in between.
(...back to our scheduled programming...)
Have you ever had the sneaky suspicion that the devil is grabbing at almost anything in your life just to take you out of a good place that God has blessed you to be in?
Well, if not, you haven't lived long enough :)...I mean...I'm only 22, but I've seen some things that don't make me doubt the presence of evil forces.
Anyway, I find myself feeling super sensitive to people's comments about me whether it is about my past, my looks, my future, my cooking, or any of my other capabilities. Now, for the people who know me, you guys know that I am sensitive by nature anyway. So just picture normal Khadijah sensitivity just a tad bit heightened.
I'm writing this blog because I am thankful to be in a place where I can see what is taking place and why. God has brought me through some major things this year and I am glad to say that I am the happiest I've been in about 1.5 years. I have successfully disentangled my dreams from the snare of the corporate sector and now I have time to focus on me and my music. WHO could ask for more? Not to mention that in about 2 weeks, I will be participating in a wonderful gospel choir milestone concert at Dartmouth College which should cap off a great Fall term...then we head into the holiday season (...yes, the Holiday season for me starts after the Dartmouth Fall Concert, haha).
I digress.
The devil is scared. I'm in a good place and he wants me to question who I intrinsically am...the little things that make me, me: my quirks, my preferences, my dislikes, my talents, my personality etc. He wants me to compare myself and place higher value on those I compare myself to. Not going to happen. Not on my watch. I am moving to a higher level of Confidence, Discernment and Wisdom. So much so that I can catch him while he is in the midst of his antics and call him out over my blog loudspeaker.
DEVIL, I am not scared of you.
there! haha...that felt good to write. :)
I feel I wrote this blog more for myself than for any of my readers. This is a cathartic blog, indeed.
Some of you may be lost on this subject, but I know others know EXACTLY what I am talking about.
Stand up against the wiles of the devil.
He only messes with you because he is scared of your potential.
Take it as a compliment, write a blog about it, and move on with purpose.
the measure of a man
15 years ago
1 comment:
He's messing with me too as I a successfully struggling to move to a better more spiritual place - and I recognized it too. (We have crossed swords before) When this happens I just put on my whole armor and continue to progress but this time I haven't had the courage to say it out loud as clearly as you have. Thank you for being so bold in the spirit. Also please keep Aki in your prayers, I think he's under attack too. Jah is my navigator.
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