My Debut

I should be reading "The Secret Life of Bees" right now...but I felt compelled to write a blog.

So. In about a week, I will be debuting myself as a solo artist at Lincoln Center (Oct 28th). I am excited. A few years back, I promised myself that I wouldn't go down this road which would lead to disappointment. But God had other plans. Now, I am not saying that He wants to make me a superstar, but He definitely wants me to sing. And to this, I say "Ok God- Use me." Easier said than done. Nonetheless, it will be done.

Sometimes I think about how harmonies and great lyrics and beautiful voices can make my heart skip a beat. Nothing else can do that--except for true love (and I haven't experienced that yet!). If I took away ALL of the fears about people's judgment of my art and my gift, I could honestly say that singing is the love of my life. I used to think that being a musician is nothing compared to being a doctor, a professor, or a CEO. But one day, I woke up and God was telling me this: "they all need you. Doctors, professors, and CEOs need music"...now, they don't need me per say, but music is something that everyone needs. I rarely meet a soul that does not let music into a very sensitive part of themselves because of its capacity to enlighten, bring joy, bring tear, and bring healing. God wants to use me and I cannot fight it anymore.

I heard my demo on Saturday morning and there was nothing that could have brought more joy to my heart (other than falling in love and/or seeing my mother again). But alas, he is waking me up....God is waking up this droopy Blackbird that has been singing in the dead of night for too long.

It's time to take my chance.