"Blackbird Singing In The Dead of Night..."

BLACKBIRD by The Beatles
Blackbird singing in the dead of night / Take these broken wings and learn to fly/ All your life/ You were only waiting for this moment to arise/ Black bird singing in the dead of night/ Take these sunken eyes and learn to see/ all your life/ you were only waiting for this moment to be free/ Blackbird fly, Blackbird fly Into the light of the dark black night/ Blackbird fly, Blackbird fly Into the light of the dark black night/ Blackbird singing in the dead of night/ Take these broken wings and learn to fly / All your life/ You were only waiting for this moment to arise/ You were only waiting for this moment to arise/ You were only waiting for this moment to arise/

this song speaks my transition. I am trying out this blog thing because as I may not always be the first to say something, my mind and my fingers are always going...nothing can stop them...my mind and my fingers (and subsequently, my keyboard) live in such romantic harmony that I get jealous. Can I get a boyfriend first? As I sit on the cusp of graduating from Dartmouth College ('08!!!!), the blackbird inside of me yearns more and more to be free. I feel like Joseph in the Bible. God told him that he was destined to do great things. Correction- 75% feels like Joseph. The other 25% feels like major failure could be on the horizon. And when I write "major failure" I mean a sickening life of mediocrity. All my life, I have been waiting. As I sit here in the dark, in my messy dorm room full of half-packed boxes and piles of college junk that I will throw away, I am still waiting. Dear ole Dartmouth. How my wings have been broken. Dear ole Dartmouth. How my eyes have been sunken. On the cusp of graduation, I sit here waiting. The blackbird inside is slowly rising. It rises slowly because I tell it to wait. It asks, "wait for what?" and I reply "....i don't know". I don't know? I don't know? Is that the best I've got? Sure is. I don't know, but it sure is worth the wait...into the light of the dark black night...